Ok honestly in all honesty…

i go to new york every year to work. and this year the cost of going there is more than what im gonna earn when i’m there… BUT when im there, i’m so happy and i love all my friends and my job so much. i miss it everyday.

please answer me this:

should i be worrying about the cost of going to the states this year and actually start a “career” of sorts, or should i just say ‘fuck it, life’s too short’ and go to new york and wing it?